Today will be my first class in general English, but Damn! I almost loose some English pitch in my head already. I think it because I saw Korean drama Lie to me recently, and absolutely some variety show. But, instead of working my homework for this afternoon class, I’m thinking to write this tumblelog first. I hope with write this I can regain my pitch back and learn to talk in English..In my mind Korean words easily pop-up, but English, I need a little wait here.
When I got nothing to do like this, It’s make me thinking of something past by, like marriage, family, my health, boyfriend, computer science, what I had until now, finding a job, scholarship, or take graduate program…..
fuuuh… too much to think of… without nothing particular.
I think because my mind a little bit free from job stress, because of jobless, that’s why my mind just flew like that. Therefore, It still make me stress of almost a little problem, or just simple happen. That’s why, maybe I need to take yoga class, I want to meditate myself, freely from the distraction around.
I’m old enough already. Like I will be decrease my life 20 years earlier. huh….why I always write something sad in my tumblelog instead cherish and happy one?Really, I feel I need a yoga class indeed. But the cost is really makes me crazy, because of my jobless position.argh!!how could it be…I just need a meditation to ride of all negative thinking in my head. I can not find a better way to deal with it. oooh….really….opening email everyday also make me anxious…how come nothing came up in this month, am I must waiting until June or else?ohhh….let it be…all is well(I hope find my true passion as soon as possible).btw, this writing already 300 words…fu fu..
This month, I don’t know what I must to do. I almost nothing can be done this month though, but with this kind of jobless, I need a job, a permanent job soon. how are we in this situation?
But thanks God, I got help from many friends with my situation today. Therefore, I confuse to take it or not, because there is some projects that is not finished. In this jobless day I got myself off control, lazily sleeping until late morning, did something unimportant, and got myself really bored.
Therefore, I must finish my side jobs. Really amusing, I just got 2 page per day and for the other one, I almost got nothing… shame of me… I can do programming though. I really want to improve my personality and knowledge, but I didn’t get anything… huhuhu….sorry for this mellow things. Yes, maybe I’m a drama queen but I really want to move on. I had to be someone different.
yes, I’m jobless now with busy schedule waiting and waiting for unpredicted review. I just can hope maybe I can get that but in another hand, I’m afraid if I will be rejected and absolutely jobless for a couple of months.
I really encourage myself to write all my blog with English and I think it’s work for me to learn how to write.
“I got myself jobless for next month, but I’m happy not working on something I don’t like anymore”
“When one close, then let’s try another one!MelON!!!!!!!!” — me and for myself
I meet this man and he is great. At first, I never knew that this man is a scholar. I just knew he is a husband of my boss’ sister. At first, his only child,Lita is great in English, and I amaze of her perfect accent who just maybe 8 years old. Me, myself never be as perfect as her. So, that’s why I had my eye on his child.
After a few days after, I had an opportunity to saw Lita’s mom. I wonder how she teach her child to be like this. I don’t know how she does for a living but I absolutely like her when she talked to her child with English. I don’t even care what are they actually except for their everyday English life and Lita really ‘WOW’ to me!
Once a week, I meet Lita and her grandmother. She is awesome and adorable. Then after my hiatus, I meet this man. When I meet him, I was late and I didn’t know exactly what happen but someone in my office calling me and introduced me to him. I know him as Lita’s father, my boss’ brother in law and just ordinary man who sat at the left desk with his macbook. He was busy on his mac’s and shake my hand. He introduced him self, ” Andi”. Oh okay. I got it and smiled to him.
Nothing particular that made him special in that introduction. As in the noon, we(me and co-workers) had lunch together and I knew he has been in Aussie. I just thought and said, “Wow…he is awesome!”. No matter what he did in there just I feel that it was great and finally, I knew why Lita so great in English in that young age. Just like that. the meeting just like that.
There I am. I found some scholarship programs around internet. It funny because I never thought that the requirement just simple. I almost had it all, but I don’t know I want to do it or not, I just like to looking around. One of this scholarship is ADS -Australian Development Scholarship- really well known scholarship for Indonesian to go to Australia.(but I just knew it that day. ha ha, silly me).
Looking around for this ADS, I found a good link, blog, which it all about ADS written by the ADS scholar or other which have same sponsor. I looked the photo. Wait a minute. I think I knew this person, this family, monolog on myself. I found familiar faces, but I still doubt it, am I really know them?I read along all the blogs. Well written. Absolutely great if it made for books(but I don’t know it will be a book or not. Well, maybe a novel?). I enjoy read this blog. a few minute latter I feel sure that blog belongs to Andi’s, that man, Lita’s father who have a great talent of daughter. The photograph is about the tree of them in winter 2010 in Australia. I really amaze and big round O in my mouth. That’s why Lita so adorable talking in English…..
That man is a virtual celebrity, a scholar, a blogger of scholarship which the hint of his blog will never stop. Hello, Mr Andi or Bli Andi, your style of blogging inspire me. How can you write that long?ha ha…If you want to know more about Bli Andi and his family, here is the link madeandi.com/ and about the scholarship, here is the link: australiaawardsindo.or.id/
Well, this is the first time I wrote a long blog like this. ha ha…a movement, because I move on….ha ha…Well, and this is the first time I’m really gratitude I work in my office and meet personally to this family,therefore I want to resign soon and leave them, maybe next time we will meet again. ha ha….
Habibie, one of Indonesian genius person. I like to say he is excellent. Bring Indonesia to the world. May be politics made him as president and down. His words are jumping, his word can be many inspiration of the nation. Let’s say, if only there is communism or confuciusm in this country, may be this nation cannot be like this.
Inspiring. There are many inspired person around us, not only Habibie. Grace Hopper, one of mathematician who found debugging. Bring new vision of computer. Our mom, who love us no matter we are, hugging us, kiss us, and support us no matter crazy our decision is. I appreciate all of you to inspire me to be a woman, a human and someone who try myself to be better. (well, I think my word is also jumping)
Dear God, Let me know what the best for me where I can assure my future not to be an egoistic person, not just looking for money(when actually I am!), and love my family no matter what they are. Please give me a sign, give me something I can dream of…. like always…
Dear my mom, I love you and I’m sorry, please give me a little time.
True story, bro. More class stuff.
My Master’s diploma just came in the mail. Whoop, whoop!